By Israfel Sivad
My face is
so pale it’s white, like
a whale, as bright as
I saw last night.
Ahab ain’t got nothin’
on this motherfucker.
I’ll tear through
every wave, deeper
than that peg-leg bastard
was ever willing to go.
I’ll take everything on:
Death, hate, fear, the loves of
lives repressed by straight white lines,
lives depressed by little white lies.
I’ll smack that shit upside
the head, send it running,
screaming, like the screams
from a dream of paper
and fright, of real lines of
white, of demons and night.
Take it again. I’ll bear it again.
The bright white light of life
breathing right here, so strong, like
sex and drugs and mythology,
is the source of what I rolled for you
since I was a child so wild,
baby child, little child,
running wild like a firefly
through the glare of hell’s headlights
lighting our lives through the songs
we wanted to sing. Those songs are
gone. We’ll remake them tomorrow.
You were all waiting for me,
waiting for me at the crossroads,
wanting, needing to tell me
we’re all going to die.
I told one of you a story about
your hometown. She smiled,
shook my hand, wandered
into the black night, vanished in
the haze of our minds. There were
two more things I wanted to say,
but there were three more of you
that day. I couldn’t tell you all
rats sang when I came home,
scuttled in the bed frame
when I laid down alone,
when I rolled my pen,
burnt it on the altar of love.
Ranting, raving, lying
on my bed, my funeral pyre,
flames of white fire, Lord, is what
I eat. Rats run across my feet.
I wandered down the street,
left you all, left the whorehouse
behind my left, but the rats still
ran across my feet. The rats
still made up my myth for me.
Beady red eyes, bodies
like milk, so white. Like
milk this drug gets old.
Aging, we die. We talk about the color
white. We say something that says
nothing, nothing at all, but
that’s everything, right?
Poem written and spoken by Israfel Sivad from his collection “The Tree Outside My Window” available at: http://amazon.com/author/israfel-sivad
Music remix of “See God’s Ark” by DJ Super Squirrel www.djsupersquirrel.com
Thumbnail: “Beauty by the Night” by Rogelio Ronco: rogelioronco.com/